the little boy.

i stood staring at some unmemorable poster on the wall. i dont really recall when i first noticed him, or when i first caught his eye, but soon there was the definite start of little eyeflickers, as i paced around aimlessly waiting for my plastic cup, while he with an unknown agenda ran listlessly around in unformed circles, sometimes disappearing at the end and reappearing at the beginning. he was a tiny one, about the height of my waist, and with a very typical chinese almost-botak head plus face. suiting my characteristics, i never stared at him straight in the eye or smiled or even acknowledged anything of him in the slightest, only giving obvious glances when he thinks i think he's not looking, and then wandering off somewhere else when he gives me a look that says he thinks i think he's not looking. here was this girl, dressed in blue, alone in the waiting lounge just like him, amidst the other bustling pink-uniformed people, matching his random circles-pacing, caught in her own world but somehow crisscrossing over his. it was a very unnoticeable scene, a very common situation between perfect strangers, where you would never notice nor remember the other ever again, with the only difference being that: we noticed.

finally my cup came, and i gave a polite thanks to the nurse before turning and walking off down the far hallway. halfway thru the downlighted narrow place, i turned and, like a movie, was fated to have an eye-to-eye moment with the little boy, who had abruptly stopped his listless circles and was watching me go in a very still manner. it was a moment i could not have passed. i smiled, raised my right hand and gave him a little wave, to which he responded by lifting his right hand and waving right back at me. we were silently saying our short-lived, little goodbyes.

loss.

grey's anatomy is supah rocking it. (Y)

:)

these are always gonna be putting a smile upon my face.

http://www.smule.com/magicpiano?p=3P6SH

http://www.smule.com/magicpiano?p=3Q3NE

http://www.smule.com/magicpiano?p=3Q3NT

the story of irony / coincidence / fate wtf.

dont feel like i should go into details about this story, but basically sometime during may, me and nelvie had spent a few days of holiday at bangkok. in relation to another story-incident that happened a year ago, i therefore kinda had a 'secret mission' to buy a pair of woven bracelets thingy while i was there, 'secret' just to surprise him and 'mission' to make up for said story-incident. however, everyday there seemed to be something going on and with time streaking by, i suddenly realized it was already our last bangkok hour before boarding the train to the airport and flying home. our hotel was right smack in the middle of a shopping district, so i decided to take my chance and run through store after store looking for the bloody tiny things. i had eyed one really ugly pair and upon approaching the last 5 minutes of my hour, i was just about to head back to buy those ugly ones out of pure desperation when i lunge one more time forward to the next shop, stooped low and wala--there they were on my right, sudden rows and rows of options for me to choose from (when there were absolutely none anywhere else in the huge freaking mall)--beautiful, spiffy-looking woven bracelets.

i happily picked two matching ones that i thought was nicest and purchased. i then fluttered back to nelvie waiting patiently in the hotel lounge and we both put them on for each other on the spot. i felt astounded at my luck and was at bliss with the success of my 'secret mission'.

about a month or two ago i lost my side of the bracelet. if youve known me long enough, you will automatically know that i have this really, really, really horrible tendency of losing stuff i own, ranging from the most important item a person could ever have in his life (like a passport wtf) to the most random shit.. i dont think i really need to list anything herela right. haha.

anyway, i was frantic. i searched for it for days all over in my house but never found the damn thing. of course i never had the courage to tell nelvie, even more after what had happened with first said story-incident, and everytime i saw his one tied securely on his ankle, i felt a pang of panicked worry. even worse because he also had his previous ones from said story-incident still tied on his leg too, so id see all of them lounging together there and be reminded that i now had none.

one sunny day a week plus back, nelvie and i had just returned from a looong drive after accompanying him to pick up some banners from klang. we parked my car at the side of his street as usual and were walking back to his house, me on a flow of chatter when in the back of my mind, i saw him glancing downwards. we took a few more steps forward and then he stopped completely, turned around and stared at the ground. i stopped in mid-babble and followed his gaze upon the road.

AND THERE IT WAS, THE BLOODY THING SUDDENLY APPEARING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD OF ALL PLACES, DISCOVERED BY NELVIE OF ALL PEOPLE WILL YOU BELIEVE IT.

at first both of us stared at it. then at the same moment our heads turned to stare at his ankle. the bracelet that was hanging there seemed to twinkle back at us innocently. in the same motion as if watching some very exciting tennis match, our heads turned back again to stare at the one on the ground. it was then that i realized the one we were now looking at seemed really battered, torn and old, as if its been there for so many many days, and couldn't possibly have just fallen off nelvie's ankle in the first place.

it took me about two more swivels of my head and five full seconds to finally really realize that it wasnt just some other person's random woven bracelet--because it looked exactly the same as nelvie's--and that it was undeniably no one else's but my own, the one that i had lost so many weeks ago. however it took nelvie about another five more seconds to realize this fact because he didnt know that i had lost mine wtf, but by then i was already picking it off the floor and nearly going hysterical with disbelief and joy and bewilderment at how weirdly ironic this discovery was happening at the moment. by the time he was getting angry about the actuality that i had lost my side of the bracelet, i was already too excited to care how unabashed i sounded admitting to him the truth wtf.

♥ :)

sims social.

IS DA SHIZZZZNITTTTTTT.

about a whole week plus ago when i discovered SIMS ON FACEBOOK thanks to my darling sue's random request, i had only 3 neighbors. today i have about 20 wtf. but i will always be most fond of the first 3 because it just feels we were the pioneers and helped each other build starting stuff :)

i have also discovered that sims can tell so much about a person!

#picture 1: this is SOO kay - rocker dude, guitarist long hair eyeliner big fan of dream theater kinda shit. we are also friendly rivals WAHAHAHHA cause in real life we usually also talk in debate-kind and yeah also so i can get unlimited fury from him wtf. but that day he pee on my plot wah so anger i put whoopee cushion in his sofa buhahahaha thanks. i also peed on his plot actually and my sim looked really awkward doing it haha.

#picture 2: as you can probably obviously tell .. quite an um eccentric person in real life also. my sim is bff with his sim wtf.

picture #3: when i saw his character i was like HAHAHAHA .. this is so my brother. but he's been too lazy to start playing stupid. im also in the process of being friendly rivals with him so i can get more fury wtf.

#picture 4: my SUPER AWESOME keyboard+composer set up wahahahah. altho currently in the picture i am playing games wtf. i think they should start selling studio monitors in sims to complete myawesomelook.

so START PLAYING NOWW. you know who you all are wtf :)

august.

miss you ♥

someone told me my music sounds so amanda-ish :)

52hearts:

Sometimes I think the strangest compliments can make us feel our most beautiful, especially when it’s something about yourself that you think is quite ordinary or maybe even unusual like a tiny mole you figure no one’s ever noticed or how infectious your laugh is, but when someone finds appreciation in it, it can change your whole perspective, even if for a single moment but sometimes that’s all you need and because of that, it’s a compliment you’ll always remember over any other.